fer d pass few daes haf been going out shopping wit my mum, eating at expensive restaurants. lols` poshh daes. x)) bot lotsa stuff. mum bot lotsa things fer me, sisters n bro. she bot fer me afew clothes frm U2, chade, abrcreme n frigde .. all dese brands r really ex. she bot me a pair of shoes too. love it . love everything she bot fer me :)) smiles* lalala`
e1's b'dae is cming soon. fridae. going out with him to celeb with him. really hope dat he will chng n mean wadeva he saes strting frm 15 sept . a new fresh strt. x)

lalala` so happy. his really chnging . x) went out wit him todae. watched the devil wears prada . really nice show lahs. hees. all dat matters is dat at least i got to spent time wif him. dats wad mtters to me d most ! lalalas*

smhow i don even noe y im so hurt by dis even tho it doesn't really lyk concern me. im shocked yes. i used to haf d belief dat dere's no such things as bestfrens. i nvr did haf wan until sec skul. i only counted my frens as close or good frens. nvr listed as bestfrens . rite now, i rather stick to my belief . cos smhow i now noe dat it's true. wadeva. i choose to believe in dat n dat'll nvr chng. i may b offensive, but u asked fer it. i hate it wen ppl ignore me. if u don wanna tok to me cos of smthing , den js sae so. don do it w/o telling me. put urself into d shoes of d person u're ignoring b4 u do it to em. getta taste of how sucky it feels lyk . wadeva. i can't b bothered anymore.

just came back frm the leadership course camp . it was not bad lahs. it was kind of like a review to me cos at LTC camp we were already being taught most of the things. it was quite fun . i was so tired lahs. towards d nite denw as even more xciting but scary. cos basically mr loh were telling us scary stories n afta dat we went up to d AVA rm abt 10pm+ to watch incredible tales. wen mr loh said we were gonna watch incredible tales, i tot it was dat cartoon movie. so dumb lahs. lols` n somore i hate to watch scary movies. im d type dat'll freak out n it'll stick to my mind which adds on more to my fears. i din watch d scray parts lahs. i sat bside jac den i moved to d seat bhind to sit wit irfan n justin cos i was scared. den weneva d scary prt cming irfan wld tell me not to luk. hahas. den my grp was being coled out . we wore blindfolders n took a pen n candle. dey blindfolded us n seperated us ech on d way. we took out our blind folds, dey lit our candle, n started writing out wad we'd learn today. i cldn't even c wad i was writing. i was scared. hahas. den cos i wrie finish alrdy so i dcided to burn my paper. but not d wordslahs. but sadly wen dey moved me n qian yin tgth in a loo alone sitting in d dark, i accidentaly burnt a hole inside my paper. den i was bored so decided to tk qy's paper n burnt. lols` lame lahs inoe. i was bored lahs. hahas. second dae, in d nite dey blindfolded us inside d bus n we hadda listen to incredibla tales. to watch, listen. every counsillor can only sit at 1 seat ech. no counsillor ms b seating bside us. d aircon was rite above us n dey blasted it. so cold lahs. somore d journey dere was like so long. lols` den wen we rched we took out our blindfolds. guess where were we at ? .. old changi hospital. it was so so damn dark. we hadda get a torchlite. it was so scary. woked in as a grp n in pairs. jac n i hold hands. she made me scared wen she scream. i was luffing. kinda funny lahs. den afta dat we woked to change village to eat. hahas. so cool lahs. d last dae d facilitators cry n sm of d jnr counsillors oso cry. hahas. so touching. x)) d camp rox. den afta d whole i thing i went to meet MY dear dear !! he so swit lahs ! he waiting outside skul, dat i knew. he bot me mars bar choc n M&Ms ! big big packet. den he somore bot me a B.U.M sleeveless top . LOVE it !! i was so happy ta c him . i hugged him. hahas. love him to bits. x)) lalala`

teacher's day is tmr !! x)) lalalas* concert's tmr ! n aces dae is tmr . cca counsillors gonna do d aces dae duty :) i'm in love wit a song coled " coin-operated boy" !! by d dresen dolls .

todae was d rehearsal fer d cher's dae. lols` d performances r d BEST compared to d other years. honestly, wait fer dis cming thurs. d performances will blow u awae. trust me. hahas. it's tooting nice lahs. seriously !! lalala` love d storm performance n d opening finale n d ending. rocks. seriously. it's dance. damn nice. high skul musical .hahas. x))

sucha tiny prob turns into sucha huge snowball. had sm family probs. im sure like almost every noes alrdy lahs. i was so " pissed " wen i found out dat many ppl knew. ppl hu not even close to me noe lahs. like wth. nvm. things r not really all alright. yeahs. wadeva lahs. don wanna think abt it. thinking abt it kinda pulls me down. makes me feel so sad.
anywaes, so glad dat go highest in class fer ss wit 2 toha peeps. think it's d 2nd highest in d whole level. cos 13's d highest. chinese i passed ! ahs* so happy lahs. lols`

i was late fer skul todae. waiting fer him until late. hahas. its okaes. i don mind cos it's him. lols` quite alot of ppl were late. i was like so afraid dat i wld b d only one or smthing lahs. den SMWAN cheated. escape frm detention. sae not late. donoe wad lahs. hahas. teehees* anywaes.. like so many sec 5s sit fer awhile in detention den go off. cos sm is mr yew col dem den sm donoe wad lahs. ms kahvitah took d detention class . i so badly want my chinese marks back lahs. n of all times, mdm wong choose not to cm todae !! so PISSED !! i wan my tooting papers. hahas. i wan my marks. x( hmpf* tmr getting back my eng paper !! screams * so excited !! whhheeesx.
can't wait man ! lalala` madness :)) during chinese lesson i was so upset. cos e1 din cm. n wen i asked if i cld mit him thru claris , thru bin quan .. he said can't. dats wad i heard. i had no mood almost d whole dae. din wanna show it. den afta skul i used kel's fone to col him. den he said he can mit me. smhow d msg interpreted to m was diff. but anywae its gd. den js he coled me sae he can't mit me :( BOOS !! but den again sm ppl spoiled my mood even more during recess n den agn afta skul. seriously, if u guys don even noe den shut d fcuk up !! i js wish dat u guys will get outta my personal life. nobody invited u in anywae. it's my life. not urs. so bugger off. thanks fer ruining my dae. rite now i still feel hurt by wad u guys actually said. did u think dat i took it cooly ? pls ! i was faking it. seriously u didn't haf to add on to my misery. smhow i js can't forget wad u guys said. it's tooting hurting lahs. like wtf . wadever. screw u *

ahhs* i failed my combine science. lols` okaes. wadeva. im not really good at science anyways. but fer final yr xam, il definately study real hardd !! my physics is totally pathetic lahs. so pissed. i wrote dwn all d rite ans .. if only i hadn't erased/liquid awae my answers. den mabbe at least il get a js pass. dumb . i noe. chem, got F9. practically cos dat chapter dat we're being tested on ain't easy. donoe wad chemical calculations n sm other things lahs. lalala` can't wait fer tmr's ss !! i LOVE ss ! hahas. can't wai to get back my math n eng paper. plus ss too ! :) toodles*

things r sorta fine now i guess . i wish i js could haf at least one full dae with u where no worries or disturbs will cm. just me n you tgth. dats all i ask for. but i noe dats too much to ask for. cos i noe dat it'll nvr cm my wae. no matter how much i pray n wish, it js will nvr cm. woked hme in misery filled with tears in my eyes. held it back. smtymes i js think dat u're asking so much of me. i donoe how to tell u. i wan u to b happy. i just don get u at all. i sneaked out todae even tho i was grounded. u knew dat. but we had to end d dae with a quarell. no hugs nor kiss. js a luk of angst. i haf no sense of direction. im sure u noe dat very well. but u din cm afta me, again. u sae u care , u sae u love me. but y isit dat i don feel like u do. y isit dat u're all tok.. no action at all . it's so heartbrking hafing to owaes force myself to believe u in d things dat u sae. i js wan one dae with you. where everything's nice n fine. no quarells or anything negative. js one fucking positive dae with u.