Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Goodbye 2014.

As 2014 comes to an end, we welcome 2015 with open arms, yet afraid of what 2015 has in store for us. 2014 has been the worst year for me. So here's my goodbye speech before a new beginning comes ard.

2014, u have been nothing but unkind to me. The start of 2014 wasn't even good to begin with. I saw more downs than ups & i never achieved anything. My personal life was a roller coaster ride & i got first class seats to witnessing my life go to waste. I did try to make it better, but instead of seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, it was complete darkness throughout.

In Oct, i resigned from my full time job for 2 reasons. I'm not gna mention the 2nd reason cause it's personal, but the main reason was to spend time with my family. Especially, my father. I never mentioned this to anyone before, but since the start of the year i had this v strong, reoccurring feeling tt something bad was gg to happen to my dad. Instead of doing anything abt it, i shrugged it off. But it was still etched at the back of my mind, making it's appearances every now & then reminding me of the pain i'd go through if anything was to happen to my dad. There were times where tears started rolling down my cheeks whenever tt kind of thought popped into my head.

The start of Oct was awesome. I said to myself:
"I've had a horrible 2014, but it looks like things are turning ard for the better. I'm gna make the best of my last few months of 2014!"
I travelled to 2 places in Oct as a celebration of my b'day month. Everything went great! I finally started feeling happy.Then on 31st Oct, just when i thought everything was getting much better, i received a call whilst at work(part time) telling me my dad passed away. My world immediately went from 70% to a complete 0! Loosing my dad left a huge hole in my life. I won't get into the details of it again. But what i'm trying to get at is tt i hope, 2015 will be better than what i went through in 2014.

I'm not asking for much. I just want a simple, carefree, most importantly, HAPPY 2015. It's all i ask for. My dad said to me on one of our last few convos,

"Why do u bother helping someone who once betrayed u. Don't be stupid, make your life miserable for what. This kind of people better to stay away."

With tt said, i'm gna steer clear of the ppl who are negative, mean to me, has nothing nice to say of me, speaks ill-ly behind my back & are well, just not good to be friends with.

2015, please be kind to me, please. 

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