all i want for christmas is a lovely valentine !
:))
someone to hug, to kiss, and for him to hold me in his arms.
someone to tell me everytime i meet him that i look gorgeous and he'd hug me and kiss me on my forehead.
someone to be with me 24/7 even if i don't get to see him.
someone who'd not ditch me.
someone who'd keep his promise.

all i want is a lovely valentine that'd love me whole heartedly.

will any guy be my valentine ? ..

:))

these are the things i want for christmas .

PSP
a dimple
skirts
levi's jeans
tops
boots
wedges shoes
nike shoe
vans shoe
my hair to be curled again
ipod
electric guitar
A COTTON CANDY MACHINE
a dance class
to be a really good catcher
to win all the games coming up
to be in the all star team

:))

mummy's coming back home today at midnight. can't wait to see the things that she bought for me ! yays* hahas. my tummy hurts :( .ytd i baked some cookies. wanted to do shapes as i have the cookie shape thing. but the mixture wasn't a dough, which is why i had to put it in a heart shaped tray. my cookies always taste all the same even though i do different recipes. anyways, you could use it as weapons. it's so hard. pathertic, i know. and somore i want to be a chef. has* another day of boredom. sighs * mum went away for holiday and the first two days i only went out for like what ? 2 days. then never go out already. his going through some family probs. sighs. it affects me when his down. his actions hurt me. nvm. i keep telling myself that i'll give in and control my feelings. just put a happy face and hide the sad one beneath. i guess there's no point quarelling with him and all. i mean, his going through a crucial moment. it'll be pure mean of me to keep pushing him. sighs.whatever. LET GO !! urgghhhs* if i could, i'd run away from home to a place where i can scream so loud that nobody can hear me. a place filled with long grass, something like a meadow. and tame animals running about. better yet, put me in a place where there are all types of dogs. that'll def make me happy. to occupy me from thinking of him. sighs*
:( boos*

do you know what it's like to keep saying the same things over and over again repeatedly . but everything's still the same, nothing's changed. don't know what to do with you anymore. two paths i can choose. either stay with you and endure your bullshit, or to be with you still, but let go of you. i choose the second one. i hate you so much. you suck !

didn't go church today. ahhs* so tired ! woke up at 1.30pm. i wanted to sleep more but at 3pm i have tuition. somore it's at tiong bahru. kinda far. i was late by 1 min though. anyways, tuition ended at5pm. then i met the twins at tiong bahru plaza and shopped for their neccessities. cause their going to bali for scuba diving. so i'll be alone at home for 2 days till mum comes home. besides i just came home. practically out the whole day. so tiring.

today was my grandma's birthday. me and my siblings bought her hand lotion. ate at a thai restaurant. the food's delicious ! :) hahas. finally can get into friendster and hotmail ! weeehees ! so happy lahs. lols` dady repaired it with just one click ! mummy's in HK. she bought us lots of stuff ! so happy ! hahas. next week mummy and me will be going to KL over the weekends ! (: buy christmas presents. cheaper. might be going phuket right after christmas . anyway, watched dejavu with daddy and tash todae! DEADNICE !! hahas. damn nice. to think that it wouldn;t be nice. but actually it rocks !

sometimes i just wish i could turn back time so that i could undo the deadly embarassing and stupid things that i do. each time i think of it it makes me feel so dumb and low. and i'll like wonder ' why the hell did i do that for ? .. gosh i should have just shut up and not say anything to save me from any embarassment. ' anywaes, ytd went out wit louis n ewan. dikai went hme early. we plaed pool . ewan was late. he made us so pissed with him. he himself told us not to be late and he was late. we waited for him for s damn long. we was slping at hme. everytime he does that i feel like punching him in the face. hahas. he treated us to delifrance to make up for what he did.

HIS BACK TODAE ! (: . so damn happy ! hees. it was during training wen he came back. i was so tooting happy lahs. m miting him later to haf dina. plus i hafta buy sm stuff. so tired todae. d moment i rched hme, ate alittle n knocked out immediately.

its been 3 days since i've seen him as his at a training camp. anywaes, i went out quite alot dis few daes. woke up early too, plus slept late. went out wit the twins. mum bot me afew stuff. love it ! she bot me 2 beautiful dresses, a pair of fancy luking shorts, n a wedged shoe which i've been wanting!! LOVE EM !den todae's the twins prom nite. dey luk gorgeous. (: accopanied dem to bugis shaw hse ta do deir make up n hair. deir hair was done sp NICE !! hahas. seriously! but d make up ? .. nahs. kinda, yucks* lols` but it was "mended". tash luked lyk poison ivy, wheras nik luked lyk a princess. but dey both luked really pretty . hees. anywaes, gta wake up early tmr. n it's lyk 2.40am. aites gta go alrdy. tooDLES !! (:

his grandad's still in d hosp fer abt a wik or so. i hope dat his grandad will b fine. his lyk so upset. i dislike it wen his sad. cos den i noe il haf a bad dae. sighs !! sm things i wanna sae, but it js can't b revealed. frens cm n go. but to me, relationships r everlasting. his lyk 98% of my joy. sm frens il def treasure. but those hu're js plaeing i don treasure. those r d frens where i don even classify dem unda real frens. anywaes, i really miss him. nt seeing him fer js 1 dae practically KILLS me !! mayb i stick to him too much. trying o let go is smthing dat's hard to accomplish. it sucks even trying it. even if i had frens dat'll bring me out most of d time ta get my mind off him , i noe dat ultimately at d end of d dae, il still think abt him n miss him so much dat my heart will ache. wateva.
this thurs is d D&D, prom nite. me n jac r d emcees. yays* kinda can't wait ta c ol d graduates dressed up in gorgeous dresses ! hahas. kinda exciting. somore counsillors haf a hotel rm booked js fer dem. 2 hotel rms. unfortunately i can't stae :[ hmpf !! my mum don allow.