Monday, May 14, 2007
sighs* i really can't just stop thinking of him. why why why? .. it hurts so much. i keep dreaming of him. everyday without fail, his always on my mind. what do i have to do to get him off my mind? i think he changed his num too. cause i can't get a hold of him. urghhs* i miss him SO much. )): feel like crying, yet im holding it back. i keep saying i'll let go of him, but it's so difficult. everytime i go out, im so freaking afraid tt i'll bump into him. i smile on the outside, but on the inside i feel like tearing my heart out. and yes, i still can't let go of him. i love him still. ): whatever. even if i still love him, it's not like he'll care.