The sun will shine again.
Fret not, for everything will be fine my love.

Met Farna, Shi Kin & Rai. Missed them alot! Was really glad to see all of em (: They celebrated Rai & my birthday. Belated. Though it was a mini celebration, i was glad tt all 4 of us were there- Together (: Thanks for the bouquet of flowers! It's really nice. I didn't expect flowers from ya'll! Haha (((: Thank you so much. I really love the flowers. Esp the blue rose :DDDDD Aku suke (: I love ya'll & like i said, after my O's we will def be meeting up more often (:

Studied with Beloved & Joe after that. We had a awesome time talking to each other (Me & Beloved) cause we can hardly say anything personal to each other as we are never alone. Lol. But we did study ok. Then we ate my fav Pontian noodles ^^ Lol. Besides the boredom of studying, i had fun chit chatting & laughing with Beloved & the White Huski :D

Next week papers are impt! Humans & Science! Gaaaah. Need to expand my memory.

P.S. I will update on Hidayah's 17th birthday celebration on Thurs (:



Before placing the flowers into a vase (:





The blue rose is so beautiful (:

Here's a sneak preview of Hidayah's birthday celebration (:



The birthday girl! :D Hidayah!





Taufik! :DDDD He' super duper mega ulti adorable to the maxxxx! (((: He is Hdayah's younger brother. So cute right?? I will be updating more on him in my next post :D








& This is the hand made book i did for me & Zy's one yr anni (: I've finally completed the book :D



I used a cardboard a the spine of the book.



There's a total of 12 Chapters. All hand written by me (:

I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up. I must not give up.

It's not the end, & i MUST finish the race no matter what.

My birthday is Next Monday. For the first time in 17 years plus, i'm not at all excited bout it. To me, it's just an ordinary day & the start of O's (Which is far more important than my birthday). I'm so stressed & i do feel like giving up at times. I'm sure some do breakdown cause of the pressure & stress. As hard as i can, i try not to breakdown. But i eventually do. However, i always tell myself, 'Nothing's impossible through Christ who strengthens me.'

"Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap."
Galatians 6:7

& So, let it come to pass tt my efforts will be paid off.

People who are free & your exams have ended.. Here's something you can do. Esp girls (:
There's a Flea going on this Sat at Riverwalk, Clarke Quay. Expect cheap thrills ((((: I doubt i would be going cause i have tuition from morn to afternoon. If i have time i'll go. I'll see how :D

If you do not know how to go, take a train to Clarke Quay station & come out from the left. Go up the escalator & cross the road from Cheers. Homeclub is located there (: Happy shopping there if any of you happen to go (:

Always a part of my life.
Always loved & cherished.
I will meet him in heaven one day.

Currently having mock exams this week. Very tedious. Studying like a mad person. Keep telling myself to endure for 1 month! Lol.

Anyway, last Sunday, October 11, was the death anniversary of Scottie. I was so caught up in my own stuff i totally forgot about it & i feel terribly bad. It's been 3 years since he left me. & There's never a day where i don't think about him. I think about him every now & then. I miss him so so so so much! 11 Oct' 07- The day he passed away. The scene of me bringing him to the vet to put him down was heart breaking & it keeps replaying in my mind. The worst part was the look in his eyes. The way he looked at me as i turned my back to walk out. I was crying so badly. I miss him so so much. Sometimes i would tear whenever i think of him. Because i blame myself for agreeing to put him down. I only did it cause he was suffering badly. I just wish i would have kept him longer. Scottie is not just a dog. He's family, & always will be till the end.
I have very few photos of him. Back then i did not own a camera. The memories i have of him, are more than enough..

You light up my life.
You made it more meaningful.
With you, there's no reason for me not to smile

Here's the update on me & Zy's 1 year anni (:

Zy came over my place & gave me my first surprise gift- Zara Grey Jacket! (: Ultra happy ((: Cabbed down to Wild Wild Wet & received free tix from a kind soul. Save us $30 in total. Lol. Had a great time swimming, screaming, laughing & splashing water at each other. Filled our growling tummys at JustAcia. For dinner, we were at my plc alr. I cooked a meal for him & packed it into containers. I packed all the utensils, candles & food into a bag. While all these were going on, Zy was in my room & not allowed to come out. I then blindfolded him & brought him to a plc ard my estate which is quiet & no one goes there. I set up the utensils, candles & food.. When everything was ready, i told him to open his eyes. He was smiling & hugged me.

Over dinner, he gave me my 2nd surprise gift- A photobook of our journey tgth as a couple! SUPER DUPER MEGA ULTRA SWEET! :DDDD I was smiling like mad when i received it. It's really like a book, with our pictures & a few words inside. The background of every page are pictures taken by Zy & i. The foreground are pictures of us both (: Really sweet to the max ((:

My gift for him was muffins with words & a book i made for him. We actually gave each other the same thing in coincidence. Lol. Mine's handmade, his is printed. His one is way nicer than mine. I'm still in the midst of finishing the book as i had little time to do so.

For us to reach our 1 Year tgth is a great accomplishment. Why? Cause Zy & i went through ALOT to get to where we are now. & We're both really proud to have come to this stage. (:

P.S. There's not much photos taken of us cause we were really tired. Lol.





Before swimming (:



After swimming & bathing (:












Candlelight dinner (:





Baked cupcakes with the wordings 'Happy 1yr Anni' for Zy (:



The Zara jacket (:



THE PHOTOBOOK! (((: (I will only show a few pages)



First page.



The right side of the page, the first pic on the top left hand side, is our very 1st picture taken as friends. LOL.



My huge face with DouDou! LOL. DouDou was even part of the book! HAHAHA. Like the book reads 'Not forgetting our best friend, DOUDOU!' LOL. She was & still is a part of our lives.



Total sweetness right? (((((:

HAPPY 1 YR ANNIVERSARY BABY :DDDDD

We have finally reached our 1 year tgth. Like you said, only you & i will know the real official date we got tgth. Lol. Anyway, not a doubt that we have been through alot! But through these tough times, we come out stronger & more sensitive to each other. People may talk amongst themselves, saying we will never last. But look where we are now. We've proven them wrong. Despite the fact that we always argue in the past, with much confidence & faith, i know that we have def improved so much more! Things ARE getting better. Thanks so much for today. Esp the one-of-a-kind present you gave me. It really touched me to the maxxxx! The best gift i've ever received so far (: I love you baby! I look forward to the rest of the days ahead of us. Better days are yet to come :D

Today marks the day Zy & i got tgth 1 year ago. Close friends of the both of us, would know that we never did get along from the start. We're def not a perfect couple. But, the one thing tt kept us tgth, is our strong love for one another. No one believed tt we would make it this far, but we did (: I am glad i made the right choice in choosing Zy as my boyfriend. He may not be perfect, but who is? There's something about him tt is completely different from other guys. Something tt sweeps me off my feet. A kinda feeling tt i would never ever wanna leave him. Cause i know i'd regret it. (: I love him very much.

P.S. I will be updating on our 1 Year Anni soon! Be patient yeah? (: I will reveal the super duper shocking unique gorgeous priceless gift tt Zy gave me! It's really super duper sweet! (:

I will always love you.
Don't forget that.
Goodbye.

Your fears climb up.
Your spine like spiders.
How can i show you, you have nothing to fear?



A photo i took of DouDou today. She looks adorable here. & I groomed her myself. She looks better right?

I wish for things i do not have; Things that are beyond my control.
In silence, i secretly wish for the things i yearn for.
Hoping tt someday, i'll be everything i hope to be.
But i am who i am, & i am born the way i am.
Everything i wish i could or should be, are plain illusions.
I loathe the fact that i can't be the person i desire to be.
To be equipped with the skills & knowledge i lack of.
Maybe there'd be a glimmer of hope for me?
But no. I should be grateful for the things i already have.
'Cause i'm envious & jealousy took a haul on me- & Sadly, i gave in.
Daydreaming just won't do me justice.
It kills.

Met Mitchell today after school before he leaves for Taiwan for 3 weeks! Lol. So long right. He's not going there on a vacation. More like for torture purposes- Army. At least on the last 3 days he'll be able to shop. LOL. When tt day comes, it'll be 'Hello civilisaition, Goodbye nightmare'. He brought his camera out. & He recently bought a fisheye lens. Super cool. So we chilled at Tpy park & took afew shots. Shots of disgusting looking frogs, dragonflies & huge ass bees tt scared the shit outta me. BUT, i had fun (:

P.S. Mitchell don't buy me a 'I LOVE TAIWAN' tee!!!! LOL. It's damn... Yeah. Lol i'll kill you. Anyway take care alright! Come back in one full peice. Lol.



Ultra adorable small kitty!!









Mitchell always said my hair's thick. I refused to believe him & even said it's thin. After looking at this picture, I now believe him. HAHAHA.





Dragonfly



Mitchell poking a half-dead disgusting frog. So sadistic right. Lol



This frog looks damn ugly. It looks like it got stepped on many times till it flattened.





Mitchell. I told him to act natural, & this is what he did -.- Lol.





The watch shop. Super cool



I FINALLY REPAIRED MY FAV WATCH!! :DDDDDD Friggin happy to the max (((((: I love this watch ultra super duper much!