HIS BACK TODAE ! (: . so damn happy ! hees. it was during training wen he came back. i was so tooting happy lahs. m miting him later to haf dina. plus i hafta buy sm stuff. so tired todae. d moment i rched hme, ate alittle n knocked out immediately.

its been 3 days since i've seen him as his at a training camp. anywaes, i went out quite alot dis few daes. woke up early too, plus slept late. went out wit the twins. mum bot me afew stuff. love it ! she bot me 2 beautiful dresses, a pair of fancy luking shorts, n a wedged shoe which i've been wanting!! LOVE EM !den todae's the twins prom nite. dey luk gorgeous. (: accopanied dem to bugis shaw hse ta do deir make up n hair. deir hair was done sp NICE !! hahas. seriously! but d make up ? .. nahs. kinda, yucks* lols` but it was "mended". tash luked lyk poison ivy, wheras nik luked lyk a princess. but dey both luked really pretty . hees. anywaes, gta wake up early tmr. n it's lyk 2.40am. aites gta go alrdy. tooDLES !! (:

his grandad's still in d hosp fer abt a wik or so. i hope dat his grandad will b fine. his lyk so upset. i dislike it wen his sad. cos den i noe il haf a bad dae. sighs !! sm things i wanna sae, but it js can't b revealed. frens cm n go. but to me, relationships r everlasting. his lyk 98% of my joy. sm frens il def treasure. but those hu're js plaeing i don treasure. those r d frens where i don even classify dem unda real frens. anywaes, i really miss him. nt seeing him fer js 1 dae practically KILLS me !! mayb i stick to him too much. trying o let go is smthing dat's hard to accomplish. it sucks even trying it. even if i had frens dat'll bring me out most of d time ta get my mind off him , i noe dat ultimately at d end of d dae, il still think abt him n miss him so much dat my heart will ache. wateva.
this thurs is d D&D, prom nite. me n jac r d emcees. yays* kinda can't wait ta c ol d graduates dressed up in gorgeous dresses ! hahas. kinda exciting. somore counsillors haf a hotel rm booked js fer dem. 2 hotel rms. unfortunately i can't stae :[ hmpf !! my mum don allow.

dis morn had training. everytime i train it feels so meaningless w/o him ard. i had a glimpse of joy thinking dat he'd cum cos he told me he was on his way. hlf past nine, he hadn't showed up. so i figured he was gonna turn up anymore. i had no mood to train at ol. afta training , no msges or cols frm him at ol. i was so pissed. i coled him n he din pick up. den he msged me ta tell me dat his grandad was being admitted into d hosp. den dat's where i knew, ol d misery n neglectness frm him is gonna cm even more. sighs* why does it gta happen now. im so wishing, no wait, i mean WANTING ! for a chng in him. seriously ! his driving me nuts ! he kips hurting me w/o realisation. sighs* alright ! enuf of him already ! GUESS WAT ?!


I CURLED MY HAIR !

wheees. lols` d curls aren't dat nice. wen i tie my hair, it luks lyk bush ! zzzk* lols` thanks God fer jac, she told me ta use dis particular clip datbse owaes use. thinking of it, it'll luk beta den. has ! sighs* unfortunately i got so many negative comments frm ppl. boohoos*

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away, Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

came back frm camp ytd. met irwan den went hme ard 2plus. i dozed off d moment i rched hme. e1 coled me at abt 11:41pm. den we toked fer awhile den i went to slp agn. den woke up at 8.26am. hahas. i slpet fer lyk 13 hrs. my greatest record. i was too tired lah. din get enuf slp during d camp. nw il tok abt d camp .

day 1
we took a bus to changi den took a boat to pulau ubin. ech grp hadda caryy a jerry can. it was DAMN heavy lahs. we somore hadda wok to d plc frm pulau ubin fer 2hrs. smbody went to throw d jerry can infrnt of d van so mr loh decided to make em carry. but cos it was slowing dem dwn. so we left it at a plc n d van came to pick it up. we rched d plc near d quarry. it was ol rocks. so we were practically slping on rocks. lols` d leaders went into d quarry. didn't jump, js eh dip. cos it was getting late. den dey hadda chng bhind d bushes. no loo dere. counsillors didn't jump. so we didn't bath fer 1 n a hlf daes.

day 2
we woked back to pulau ubin strting area fer 2hrs agn. den we went to jalan bahtra. d campsite was nice. back to civilisation. hahas. so we bathed . FINALLY ! hahas. d grps had games n ol n grp discussion. b4 we went to d cemetry we made dem watch gost stories. it was sm kinda thai movie. damn tooting scary. i din watch. i only hear. lols` scared lahs. den in d nite we went to lim chu kang fer nite wok . we woked to d bus stop fer sbs transport. den d counsillors went to d respective stations to make sure nthing goes wrng. unfortunately only abt 7 ppl did d nite wok. cos dere was a ritual going on. so FREAKY ! really .. d ppl lyk strted to throw paper money everywhere. den d priest strted shaking . des said he went into d dead's body. so scary lahs. dn he suddenly scream . we gta shock lahs. so scary !! den one of d deceased related members told javier to stop ppl frm woking cos it was distracting dem n oso lyk no respect. so we haddas top n wok a BIG rnd back to d strting pint. den we ran 8km run. hahas. cool rite . lols` i ran bhind to pull d slow wans. pull until my tummy pain. cos deir pace too slow. den i had butt cramps leg crapms hand cramps back cramps. everywhere cramps. lols`

day 3
we watched many scary movies. i cant rally rmbr wat we did lahs. lols`

day 4
we went to labourdore adventure centre. a new campsite.d leaders ran d camp . so we can c deir leardership skills. we went to labourdore park to plae games n ol. den in d nite we had a surprise fer d leaders coled d ltc ntie. haha. buffet seh !! lols` den we watched movie till 3 am plus. but so many ppl slping alrdy. den a grp of d counsillor boy draw on alot of ppl's legs. lols` i slpet lyk one of d lastest n dey drew on me. i didn't feel a thing. i was too tired i think. lols`

day 5
GO HME ! WHEEES. HAPPY LYK SHIAT. HAHAS. mr loh discuseed wit me jac n jp abt d sec 4 n 5 dina n dance. prom nite. we ms wear gown ! whheees. so happy sial !

dats ol. x)